Will it be you?- Chapter 20

Flickering my eyes open, my face was facing Sidney's. He has his strong arms around me tightly.
His eyes were open looking at me.

"Good morning babe,"
He kiss my forehead.

"Morning how long have you been up?"

"Just a few minutes,"

"Ok, I dont wanna go through today. This shouldn't be happening to me,"
Tears began to fall from my eyes.
Sidney wipes my eyes off as he pulls me closer to him.

"You'll get through it. I know you will cause you'll have me by your side,"
I smile as he trys to cheer me up, but nothing will cheer me up on this day, NOTHING!

We cuddle up by the fireplace, like we were last night.
I didn't want to even move out of his arms.

After while, Sidney looks at me.

"You wanna go get something to eat? It might help you," sidney says.

"Yeah why not, I'm a little bit hungry,"I say.
We both got off the floor as Sidney opens the living room door.

"Go ahead,"Sid says
I walk ahead of him as I walk back to the kicthen.

"Morning Aaylah,Sidney. Did you two sleep well last night?"Nathalie asks as she got up from the table.

"We slept alright,"Sidney says as he walks into the kicthen area.

"Has LC and Army been out here yet?"Sidney asks as he opens the fridge door open.

"No and I can cook you something for you two. I dont have a problam with that,"Nathalie says as she walks into the kicthen area.

"I can handle making breakfest but thanks for the offer Nat,"Sid says.

"Morning everyone,"I hear LC say.

"Morning, would you like any breakfest?"Nathalie asks.

"Yes please. I'm straving. What are you doing Sid?"LC asks as she sat beside me, on my right side.

"I'm making me and Aaylah breakfest,"Sid says as I couldn't watch what he was making.

"Morning,"I hear Colby says as he pulls a chair out and sits beside LC.

"Morning, what would you and colby want?"Nathalie asks.

"Blueberry pancakes,"LC says.

"alright,"Nathalie says.

"You ok Aaylah?"LC asks as I look at her.

"I have to bury my mom today,"I say as I want to cry.
LC wraps her arm around me from where she was sitting at.

"I'll be there for you,"LC says.
I look at her.

"Thank you,"I say.
She is like a second sister to me besides Yvette. Speaking of Vette, I gotta call her after I eat and plan it at one then call the hosptial about it.

"That's what friends are for, to help you out,"LC says.
I smile.

A few more minutes, I watch as Sidney comes out with two plates in his hands.

"Here you go,"Sid says as he sets on plate infront of me.
It was french toast, with cinnamon on it.
I smile at him.

"Did you make them yourself?"I asks as i take the fork from off the plate and cut into the french toast.

"Yeah, they are good too. I promise,"Sidney says as he smiles at me.
I place a little in my mouth and it was so good.

"I like'em Sid,"I say,smiling.

"I knew you would,"
I then contuine to eat the rest of my breakfest.

"Where are the kids?"LC asks.

"Mario has tooken then to school, it's 8:30,"Nathalie says.

"Oh ok, I thought they we're home schooled,"LC says.

"Nope,"
I put my fork on my plateas I enjoyed Sidney's breakfest.

"So what are you all doing today?"Nathalie asks

I didn't want to say anything about the furneal.

"We have to attend a furneal today,"sid says.

"That's sad. Whos?"Nathalie asks.

"My mothers,"I say.
Nathalie walks over to me as she gives me a hug.

"Thank you," I say crying.
Nathalie then begins to comfort me like she probably would with her children.

"Everything will be alright,"Nathalie says as I wipe my eyes.

"Thanks Nathalie, excuse me I gotta go change and call,"I say as i get up from the table as i head for Sidney's wing.
Walking in, I see my bags on the floor, so I pick up my packing bag and head into the bathroom.
closing and locking the door i pull out my cell phone and dial Vette's number.

"Morning Vette,"I say.

"Everything is ready beside the amblunce, what time would you like it at?"Vette asks.

"One,"

"Alright, I'll be there shortly ok?"

"Alright see you then,"
I hang up with her as I dial the hosptial number and ext to the doctors office.

"Hello,"she says.

"Yes this is Aaylah Thomason, you said for me to call when i got the plans out and I have. Can you have the amblunce drive her to the Holy Versailles at one this afternoon?"I asks.

"Yes ma'am. About where so I can inform the driver?"

"In the back near the fencing,"

"Alright, thanks,"
I hang up the phone as I pick up my bag onto the sink.
Opening the bag, I see a black skirt, a dressy white shirt ,dress shoes and my favorite outfit.
I pull out the dressy outfit as I throw the bag onto the ground.
Looking at myself in the mirror, I was a wreck.
My eyes are puffy and I'm a wreck.
breathing, I change from the clothes that Sidney let me have to the dressy outift.
Looking ay myself in the mirror, someone knocks on the door.

"You ok in there babe?"Sidney asks as he opens the door.

"No, sid. i dont wanna go through another furneal,"i say as I walk over to him for a hug.

"Everything will be fine babe,"
He moves his hand through my hair.
He is probably the only boyfriend who actually cares about me.

"I hope so Sid,"I say as I look up at him.

"It will be,"
He then comes down to kiss me.

"Thank you for being here sidney,"
I hug him as he hugs me back.

"I'm glad I'm here with you,"
As a few minutes pass, as LC and Colby came into the wing.

"finish getting dress babe. If you need me I'm in my room,"sidney says as he kisses my forehead as he heads into his room.

As I turn around to go into the bathroom, LC comes over to me.

"I'm sorry,"LC says as she hugs me.

"Thank you,"I say.

"If you need anything tell me ok?"

"Alright, thanks,"
She then hugs me and heads into her room.

Walking back into the bathroom, I close the door.
I sit on the toliet as I put on my shoes, the same ones i wore to my father's furneal.
All the effort to tie them, I stand up and began with my hair but it's really not going to matter.

Grabbing my bag, I walk back into the hall as i see Sidney is a suit. It was all black but the shirt, that was a blue stripe shirt.

"give me that,"Sidney says.
I hand him my bag as he puts it in his room.
He smiles as he comes back out.

Walking up front, Colby was wearing a tan suit wit a white shirt.

"Thanks for being here Colby,"I say as i go over and hug me.

"Your welcome, your my pals girlfriend, so your my friend,"

"Thanks colby,"
As I say that a knock came at Sidney's door.

I watch as Sidney goes over and opens it to reveal Vette in a black dress pants, a blue shirt, and a black jacket. Geno was in a blue suit with a light blue shirt.

"Aaylah,"Vette says as she walks over to me.

"I'm so sorry girl. Your mom was one of the greatest,"Vette says as she hugs me.

"I know, I can't believe she is gone,"
I begin to cry.
My mom was a very good mother to me and Vette when she used to come over all the time as we were kids.

After Me and Vette's crying, subsides, LC comes out of her room in a white dress suit with her hair up.

"I'm ready"LC says as we all were in the living room.

"So when will the amblunce be there?"Sidney asks.

"1,"I say.

"Then we need to get there before them, so are we taking 3 cars?"LC asks.

"We can take the mini-van when Mario gets back. He will let us borrow that,"Sidney says.

"No Sid, Me,Colby,Vette and Geno will ride together, so you an Aaylah can be by yourselfs,"LC says.

"Alright we'll do that,"Sidney says

For the next few hours we just all hang out in the living room, until the clock reads 11:55.

"We need to get going,"I say.
I wanted to get there early.

"Ok, lets go,"Sidney says as we all stand up.

"Let Sid and Aaylah go first,"LC says as I walk behide Sid out of his wing.

We then walk to the door, as Sid grabs the van keys.
Then he opens the door.
We both walk out at the sametime as we head to the cars

"Do you want to take my car or yours?" sidney asks.

"I don't care,"I say.
Sidney then grabs my hand as we walk over to his range rover.
He then opens my door for me.

"Thank you,"I say as I get into the car as he closes the door.
Buckling up, I watch as sidney opens his door.

"We'll follow you guys,"I hear LC says

"Alright,"Sid says as he gets into the car.
Closing the door he began the car up.

Sidney pulls out of the space as he begins the 45 to 50 minuts journey out to North Versailles.
The closer that we got the nervous I became.
As i look over to Sidney, he grabs and interwined our fingers together as we set them on the center of the car.

"It will be alright babe, i promise,"Sidney says.

"I really hope so sidney,"I say as I begin to cry.
I knew that Sidney couldnt do anything as he was driving but I couldnt help it at all.

"Babe, don't cry. I hate seeing you cry,"
He begins to rub my hand as he was driving.


It was silent as we rode the rest of the way to the cematary.

"When I get to this light, turn right?"Sidney asks.

"Yes,"I say.
As the light turns green, he turns into the Holy Versailles cematary.

"To the corner in the back,"I say.
Sidney drove to the back as he stops.
I unbuckled as i storm away from the car as I run to my dad's grave.
I then got on my knees.

"I'm sorry dad, mom is up there in heaven with you. I'm sorry for not keeping her alive, I've tried though. I hate letting you down dad, and you know it and today, I'll be barying mom beside you,"I say as I look from my dad's grave to the hole and tombstone beside his.
It belongs to my mother.
Placing my head in my hands, tears began to fill them up.
I've lost bothof my parents within my 19 years alive.

Then I feel someone wraps their arms around me.
I look up and I knew they were sidney's arms around me.
I then turn and look at him, his eyes were shut and he was crying.
I could tell that he was in pain.

After a few minutes of looking at him, he opens his eyes as he knew to get off of me as he helps me up off the ground.

"This is my daddy, Philip Thomason," I say, stll crying.

"Nice to meet you sir. You have a very good daughter here,"Sidney says as we both were crying.
As we turn around, Sidney waves for them to come up.
They all walk up.
I couldn't even talk as tha amblunce began its journey up here.
We all move over so we were inbetween both of my parents graves.
Today will be the lasttime I will have to do this.
Sidney had my hand in his as Vette and Geno was beside me as Vette grabs my other hand.
LC and Colby was beside Sidney as we have form this big line as I watch as Vette's grandfather walking up as he hugs me before hand.

"Thank you so much for doing this Mr. Michealson,"I say.

"Your like family to me Aaylah and so were your family. I'l happy to do this,"he says as he takes his spot.

"Ready?"He asks to me and the guys who have to lower my mom into the grave.

"Yes,"we say.

"We are gathered here today to mourn the death of this wonderful person,mother,wife and friend. who was a beloved person. She was like a sister to everyone that she met and now that she is gone, it will be passed on to her daughter Aaylah,"he says.

I then look at Sidney as he let my hand go as I head to see the casket hanging there on forklift.

"My mom was the most awesome person ever. She was like my best friend. She was always there for me and now that she is gone, I have no one. She was a person with a positive attitude all the time. Mom I'll miss you and your postivieness," I say as i turn around crying.
As I turn around, Sidney wraps his arm around me.

"Anyone who wants to speak, speak now,"Mr. Michealson says.
Yvette then walks forward.

"Maggie was and awesome person. i remind when you would chase me around with Leah. You were one fun mother and I enjoyed that you helped me on things too. Yous just an good person. I'll miss you Maggie,"Vette says as I began to cry harder.
As Vette comes back, she was crying as was Geno.
I then look and Sid,LC and Colby was as well.

"In this will Aaylah come up here,"
I walk out of Sidney's arms as i walk over to him.

"Here, take this and throw in the dirt,"
Taking the shovel, i look at sidney as I take and throw some dirt into the grave.
Setting it down, I walk back over to Sidney as LC walks to were Mr. Michealson as she began to sing as they lower the casket.

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Darling I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same again
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

Lc sang it beauifully as the casket as fully in the ground.

"We now are closing this. Rest in peace Marget Emily Johnson,"He says.

"Rest in peace mom,"i say as everyone else says Marget.
I then walk away as i head down to the car.
I wanted to get outta here.
Crying so hard, sucks.

I watch as Sidney walks down to me crying.

"I'm sorry babe,"Sidney says crying as he hug me.

"It wasn't your fault,"I say as I got a hug for Vette,Geno,Colby, and LC.

"LC you sang real nice. thank you,"I say as we were hugging.

"Your very welcome. I had t do it for ya,"LC says as we end it.

"You ready t get outta here babe?"Sidney asks as he was still crying as well as me.

"Yes," I say as I get into the car.

"We'll see you when you get there,"LC says as Sidney get into the car.
He then begins to back up and drive out of the cematery.

We didn't talk until he turned to the left, like driving out of the Pittsburgh area.

"Where are you taking me Sidney?"I ask, wiping my eyes off.

"You'll see. I just want to go to a place that's peaceful for you,"Sidney says.
All I wanted to do is roll up into a little ball and cry myself to sleep, wishing this is all a dream.

15 more minutes of driving, Sidney pulls up to the Westpointe View.
He then parks his car.

"Come on babe,"Sidney says.

"Alright,"i say as i make myself get out of the car.
As I do, Sidney grabs my hand as we walk up the incline to the base, where you can see Pittsburgh from.

"Babe dont cry please. I just brought you here, so you can get away from it all,"Sidney says as I let his hand go and walk behide the railing.

"Aaylah!"Sidney exclaims as I watch him run to the side I was one.

I then sit on the rock that was on the cliff.

"I thought you was going to jump babe,"Sidney says as he gets besides me and wraps his arms around me.

"I couldn't do that even if I tried. I couldn't have you and everyone plan my furneal,"I say.
Sidney then kiss me on my cheek.

"I couldn't leave you sid, you mean too much to me,"I say.

"I love you Aaylah Nicole Thomason,"Sidney says out of the blue.
I turn to face him.

"And I will be here for you no matter what happens. I'll stick by your side,"Sidney says.

"I love you Sidney Patrick Crosby,"I say as he plants his lips on mine as we begin to kiss, passionately.

We stay in each others arms as we watch the landscape.
It was beauiful.